I'm so...

[Nymet31]

tired, but I can't even sleep. Everytime I close my eyes I see the pictures of what happened today!!!!:pout:

[loser69]

After watching it all day and sitting here at work, the day if finally catching up with me. I'm exhausted. Yawning and trying to stay awake. I know how you feel , Kath :ohno:

[Nymet31]

I think everyone in this world feels the same.

Plus my baby is still out there working hard.

[metmagic]

It's 2am and I can't f-n sleep!!!!:crying2: I can't stand it, cuz I am soooooooooooo tired.... my eyes hurt, my body is so tense.... and I want to sleep so badly, but all I can see is the map of Manhattan in my head.... my 12-mile walk (or whatever it was) and the route I took and all the stuff I saw and all the survivors I spoke with and befriended......

I'm thinking about this woman named Adrienne, whom I walked with crossing Manhattan Bridge... she worked at Bank of NY, I think she said, and watched through her office window the explosions and the people jumping out.....and how it pissed her off that her company made her stay in the building longer than they should have.... and by the time they said she could leave, there were already so many bodies on the ground and people dying...... and all she could think about as she was running down the street was PLEASE GOD LET MY BROTHER BE ALIVE.... .....her brother works at 2 World Trade, on the 48th floor..... she had kept calling him but never got through......... wherever you are Adrienne, I am praying for you and I hope your brother is alive.........

there was this really nice guy named Errol..... who was watching the news with me when we finally made it over the bridge (a construction worker had a little tv on top of his car, we stopped and watched to see the latest update) .........Errol was explaining to me the physics of the building and why it imploded and not exploded.... he was very geeky in his explanations:biggrin: , but so sweet and caring, and he helped me find the nearest (working) train station..... walked me down to make sure I was okay.......I didn't even get a chance to thank him.....:ohno:

And THOSE PEOPLE..... those unbelievable people who greeted us at the end of the bridge when we finally reached Brooklyn..... all the stores on that street, like the car dealership, with the employees standing outside handing out water and orange juice..... so many survivors ready to pass out, not used to walking a million miles, dehydrated but not knowing they were so thirsty cuz everyone was so shocked, like my bridge-buddy Adrienne.....

New Yorkers so amazingly helpful and supportive and incredibly strong..... I witnessed so much solidarity..... I didn't feel alone... it was like one giant moving-group-therapy-session..... strangers talking and connecting and helping each other trying to locate their loved ones..... lots of supportive hugs..... lemme tell ya, if you ever get in a crisis, you wanna be around New Yorkers!!




so i'm writing and writing and i got all this crap in my head.... and the images of what i saw today won't go away.......

I WANNA GO TO SLEEP!!:crying2:

[moe22]

I'm so sorry. I hope you can fall asleep soon and find a little moments peace. :ohno:

[metmagic]

hi moe.... thanks:)

i hope i can sleep soon..... *sigh*:ohno: ......it's just that i know i have friends in that building but i am afraid to find out....... i have freelanced all over the world trade center buildings so i've met a whole lotta people...... but i don't wanna know..... i just don't.....:crying2:

[pdaj]

My body aches.. and my soul uneasy.

My thoughts cannot escape today's tragedy.

And to think homework used to seem so important..

[pdaj]

I can't sleep, either!

My body yearns for it..

But my thoughts won't allow it.

[metmagic]

you know what would make me feel better? if you and moe came over and had ice cream with me....... and we all just chatted all night til i fell asleep..... being alone with my thoughts is annoying me.... i can't get away from myself.....:hmm:

[pdaj]

Could I sleep in the middle?

[metmagic]

you wanna be sandwiched? :biggrin: sure!


btw, how much do you weigh?

[pdaj]

I just need to be comforted... and cuddling with two lovely ladies would do the job perfectly.

I weigh 190 pounds - why do you ask?

[metmagic]

well, we can comfort each other......:) :cool: :)


because shawn said he's 215 lbs and i didn't know what that meant really.... so i was trying to compare with your build..... (and not a bad build at all :biggrin: )


so what the heck am i gonna do tomorrow? they just said on tv NOT to go into manhattan.... and if you dare drive in, they'll arrest you!!:uhoh: :2guns:

[metmagic]

(just thought i'd tell you now before they get in the mood to do midtown)

[pdaj]

It's tough to abstractly compare builds.

1) People are shaped differently (ie broad shoulders).

2) Height matters significantly.

3) Body fat % For instance, I could easily way 205 pounds - but would I look as good?

At 5'10", I weigh more than 70% of people my height - haha, and I assume most others above the norm are overweight and out of shape.

Now, how tall is Shawn?

6'2"?

[pdaj]

Awww, thanks babe. ;)

[metmagic]

wow, that sounds complicated...... you're not trying to make me think, are you? (please no, not that!!!!)

and i have no idea how tall shawn is....... he just said something about eating alot and being 215 (i'm probably saying this all wrong, but my brain is fried....that's my excuse:))


paul, you are insanely perfect.... don't change anything!!!!

[metmagic]

but have you considered ACTING??? i bet you'd be a natural, you've got tons of energy, and i'm guessing a nice emotional range, and you ain't bad-lookin' either :biggrin: ....plus you could put that wacky imagination of yours (i.e. your bullsh*t skills) to good use!! .....most importantly, it'd keep you outta trouble!!!

[pdaj]

Yeah, I think he's 6'2".

So 215 sounds like a pretty decent weight for him.

As for as acting goes.. if I had a nickel for everytime someone told me this. Haha, but forreal, I pulled a Hollywood performance on a teacher last year, explaining why I was unable to make it to her class 75% of the time.

But I could never be one of those guys going from audition to audition with the dream of being a movie star. It just wouldn't fulfill me as a person.

I have better things to do with my existance.

Hell, that's why we have Brad Pitt.

[metmagic]

well, you wouldn't have to be one of those guys...... try it for fun, see what happens..... cuz i think you would love it and have a blast doing it, even taking some intensive classes...... geez, i can just imagine if you were my acting partner!!:uhoh: (our scene would so not be boring!)

[metmagic]

OMG I THINK I'M FINALLY SLEEPY-SLEEPY!:uhoh: (see, i knew chatting with you would help:))

so here i go.... i think i'm gonna say g'night now...... i'm ready to pass out on my keyboard......

[pdaj]

Hmmm, maybe I will.

What do you suggest?

Beginning with theater?

[pdaj]

Sweet dreams, babe :)

[metmagic]

we'll continue chatting tomorrow:) and you'd better be around, you blowoff!!

[pdaj]

haha, i'll try.

'nite babe.

oh, and purva.. if you're reading this..

I miss you!