Sleep

[metmagic]

I hope you all were able to get some sleep last night....... it's weird cuz after being pretty shocked all day, I got all wirey and chatty last night, despite my exhaustion, and couldn't sleep, didn't wanna sleep and didn't wanna be alone with my thoughts....... and I really needed to talk to somebody but all my loved ones here are a mess emotionally and mentally and have had some kind of direct experience with the whole thing, and still in shock..... and so I am very grateful for the hour or so that Paul spent with me on the phone, listening to me ramble on and being so amazingly supportive...... and I see the difference when you're talking to someone who wasn't directly traumatized by it, I mean who wasn't there..... and it's kind of nice talking to someone physically far away from it, although I know Paul was as devastated as everyone else by the tragedy........ it's like, he was..... NORMAL (now you know something's just not right when Paul ends up being the normal one!:uhoh: )

so thanks Paul for talking to me and staying online with me and making me feel like I'm not alone and somebody cares and making me laugh and talking about trivial stuff like body weight..... I kinda fell into a state of denial sometime late last night and this morning and didn't wanna think about what happened anymore, so the light chatting felt so needed.......

and eventually, I did fall asleep!! ....must've passed out close to 4am and woke up at 7am..... oh man, it hit me when i woke up, i found myself crying.... i had been fighting the sadness cuz it's just too much..... those buildings contained so many great memories for me and i still don't wanna know who and how many friends were left in those buildings........

I hope you all got some sleep......

Kathleen, did you get any sleep?? How is Mike today??? did he find his friend? please tell him we are praying for him and we are so grateful for his courage........

[metmagic]

i don't think i got a chance to tell you yesterday how RELIEVED and happy i was to find out you were okay..... i was so scared......:crying2: .....and i tried calling you right after our building was evacuated and when the building collapsed, but the phones were all messed up and i couldn't get through....... but i just saw your name at the bottom of this screen and it hit me and i'm crying over here cuz i'm so happy you are alive.........

[Nanner]

It was good to hear your voice yesterday on the phone. I don't know about you, but there was this kind of phone chain going on amongst all of my friends. One would call the other, to see if they were okay, who would ask, "Have you talked to So-and-so,", and then it'd be, "Yeah... okay. Have you talked to... ", "Yeah, and call .... because they're wondering if you're okay." And coming home and finding messages from people you were concerned about was a relief.

I didn't think I could sleep last night, but I think my brain must have been numbed, because I did. And then I got a call at 6:30 this morning from my cousin in Indiana who hadn't been able to get through and finally did. So you go to sleep thinking of it, and it's the first thing you get when you wake up.

Geez. All those souls in the buildings and the planes. And the stories of New Yorkers... like the people you met on your trek home. Someone said on the news last night that it's tough to get New Yorkers down... even through a monumental disaster they find a way to cope and dig in and help each other.

It's like a ghost town out there today.

[metmagic]

I'm glad you slept Nanner..... I imagine everyone will have all kinds of different reactions.......

that must have felt so comforting to get the phone chains...... I was trapped in Manhattan and as you know, communication was nearly impossible (cell phones, public phones, etc) so all I could do was (after several attempts) reach Jen who was at home and I just told her "Please call everyone for me and tell them I'm all right" .....now I don't remember if I called you in Manhattan (if i did, you were the only other successful phone call)...... I didn't get home til sometime in the evening cuz when i did make it to a destination, it was my sister's (there were 1 or 2 trains that were working) and one of them stopped by her place....... so when i finally did go home, i heard all of my many messages and it felt so good to feel so cared about...... and my crazy Met fan landlady practically jumped on me when she saw me walk through the door, nearly in tears, so grateful that I was alive........


You're right Nanner, it IS tough to get New Yorkers down...... they are a special breed..... yesterday I saw how truly incredible they are.......

I'm glad I don't have to go to work today and can spend the day on the beach with my dog.......

i heard on the news late last night that if you drive into the city, you will get arrested....... i guess it will be a ghost town for a while.......

i heard Fashion Week was cancelled! so what will you do with yourself Missy?:)

[Nanner]

I'm going for a run soon. It's a good release for me. And I don't know if the office is open. I may call there later this A.M. and might go in. But, yes, Fashion Week was cancelled. And rightly so. The World of Fashion seems so mundane right now. (Well, it's always seemed mundane to me, but since yesterday even moreso.) Then there's a service at 6:00 at church, so I may go to that tonight.

You had called from your sister's, actually, so you left that number. So I called there, and then left a message on your cell phone. I can't even remember now if I left a message on your sister's phone. I think it just kept ringing. Did I leave a message on your voicemail at home? I can't remember that either.

[Nymet31]

Cyn I actually fell asleep around 3 am. It was so quiet in my room that I eventually put my headphones on and tried to listen to music. There were only two stations playing music one was a country and the other was the 80's.

I woke up this morning to my cell ringing it was Mike. He's exausted and was allowed to go back to the station a little during
the night, now he has to go back out. I don't know where he'll be today, probably everywhere.

They still haven't found his friend Brian, but it really isn't looking good. Another officer said that he thinks he was in tower 1 when it went down.

Waking up this morning and even now as I look out my window it's so hard to imagine what happened yesterday. I feel like parts of the day, the early part, were just a dream a horrible nightmare that just wouldn't go away, that just wouldn't stop.

Todays paper didn't help it much either. With all the images that we saw yesterday on TV or in person did they need to put some of those pictures in the paper? Do we need to see the victims being laid on strechers, or even worse yet did we really need to see the picture of the man "falling" to his death??? I understand that this is a media event, but my god these images will be imbeded in our minds forever, there is a need for some serious compassion around this and I think the media needs to do it's part.

[metmagic]

i know kathleen....they always feel the need to sensationalize everything cuz i guess they think it sells.....*sigh*...... so i'm avoiding newspapers today and i'll only watch the news for little bits at a time....... cuz i swear if you follow everything too closely today, you'll get so freakin depressed:crying2: